Letters from the Other Side (Sleepwreck blog)

Non-Linear Causality

March 15, 2019

  1. Direct (linear) causality can only be determined in the abstract.
  2. Causality in complex living systems is non-linear (chaotic).
  3.  Such causality is subject to influence by non-local factors including (but not limited to):
    – Intention
    – Belief
    – Synchronicity
    – Perception
  4. The World is made up of complex living systems.
  5. Human activities such as myth, prayer, visualization, and music impact reality in subtle, un-predictable, but nevertheless real ways.

A Sleepwreck Recommended Reading List

August 16, 2018

Some of you folks have probably been out to the Personal Transformation Through Music Production workshops that I’ve been hosting at festivals for the last couple of years. Usually during those proceedings I end up referencing a few different books that have influenced me in various ways, and a couple of people have asked me to put together a book list. SO… Here we are:

– A Sleepwreck Recommended Reading List – 


The More Beautiful World Our Hearts Know Is Possible – Charles Eisenstein
This dude is where it’s at. Seriously. Eisenstein is the amoung most powerful, relevant and hopeful thinkers alive today.

Come of Age – Stephen Jenkinson
A tough slog, conceptually and emotionally. Jenkinson lays bare the harsh realities of modernity with profound poetic aplomb. Stick it out to the end, it’s worth it.

Finite And Infinite Games – James Carse
Do we play games, or do our games play us?

The Tao of Pooh – Benjamin Hoff
Uses Winnie the Pooh and his friends to explain the principles of ancient Chinese mysticism.

The Tao Te Ching – Lao Tzu
The primary written document of the above mentioned Chinese mystical tradition.

Buddhism Without Beliefs – Stephen Batchelor 
Explores the principles and practices of Buddhism, minus the perhaps unnecessary religious/metaphysical aspects of the philosophy.

Coming To Our Senses – Morris Redman
Body and Spirit in the Hidden History of the West… An absolutely piercing look at the cycle of orthodoxy and heresy that defines Western culture.


The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People – Stephen R. Covey
Maybe you’re thinking, “wake up early”, “eat a good breakfast”… Nope. This book is full of principles worth basing a life around.

Good To Great – Jim Collins
An in-depth analysis of why organizations succeed… Full of potent concepts including “Level 5 Leadership”

Tribal Leadership – Dave Logan, Halee Fischer-Wright, and John King
Looks at how cultures manifest within organizations, and how good leadership can positively impact those cultures.

Tribes – Seth Godin 
How to start a movement.

Purple Cow – Seth Godin
“Revolutionize your business by being remarkable.”

Random Cool Stuff

Outliers – Malcolm Gladwell
An analysis of what makes high achievers different from everyone else? Often the important factors aren’t what we’ve been lead to believe they are.

The Tipping Point – Malcolm Gladwell
Another book on how to start a movement.

The Rise of Superman – Stephen Kotler
Flow states, and how they have been exponentially increasing human performance in the realm of extreme sports.

No Impact Man – Colin Beavan
Guy and his family live for a year in New York City without producing garbage, burning fossil fuels, or putting toxins into water. Progenitor of the Zero-Waste movement.



Emotional Intelligence – Daniel Goleman
Psychology and Neuroscience brought to bear on the realm of emotion. Super important book.

Narcissism: Denial of the True Self – Alexander Lowen
Understanding the masks that we wear, the “false self” that we identify with to one degree or another, and how to recover suppressed feelings.

Anything you can get your hands on by Wilhelm Reich
A former disciple of Freud’s who ended up discovering the “universal life energy”, and died in an American prison.

Man’s Search For Meaning – Viktor Frankl 
The philosophical findings of a German Jew who survived Auchwitz. “Between stimulus and response there is a space. Within that space lies the freedom to choose our response. In our  response lies our freedom and our growth.”



Iron John – Robert Bly
A mythopoetic look at coming of age as a man in the modern era.

No More Mr. Nice Guy – Robert A. Glover
A guide to overcoming “Nice Guy Syndrome”, i.e. learning how to make yourself happy instead of trying to please everyone else.

Male Sexuality: Why Women Don’t Understand It and Men Don’t Either
– Michael Bader

A nuanced look at male sexuality.

Silently Seduced – Kenneth Adams
Absolutely fucking dismantling book about emotional abuse in the nuclear family, and how it plays out in the lives of men affected by it.



The Cinderella Complex – Colette Dowling 
Explores women’s fear of independence, or unconscious desire to be taken care of by others (also felt very applicable to men).

Yes Means Yes: Visions of Female Sexual Power and A World Without Rape
– Edited by Jaclyn Friedman and Jessica Valenti
A nuanced and multi-faceted examination of power dynamics and consent in heterosexual relationship.


Alternative History

Fingerprints of the Gods, and the follow up Magicians of The Gods
– Graham Hancock
The un-authorized history of civilization, digging into tonnes of crazy mysteries and anomalies… BUT with a hard headed, research/evidence based approach. Nothing woohoo here.

Food of the Gods – Terence and Dennis McKenna
The originators of the Stoned Ape Hypothesis, a Trojan Horse of a book.



Sometimes a Great Notion – Ken Kesey
Possibly the greatest novel of all time.

Jitterbug Perfume (or anything else by Tom Robbins)
Hilarious and subversive. All of his stories are glorious.

The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test – Tom Wolfe
Explores the exploits of psychedelic pioneer Ken Kesey and his band of Merry Pranksters.

American Gods – Neil Gaiman
Adventures with various incarnate Dieties.

Stranger In A Strange Land – Robert Heinlein 
A guy raised by Martians transforms the culture of Earth when he returns home as an adult.

Dune – Frank Herbert
Epic science fiction, really imaginative world creating.

The Hitch-Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy – Douglas Adams
I literally read this “trilogy in four parts” in a single 3 day long sitting. One of the first authors to explore science fiction and comedy at the same time… So funny. Total classic.

“Any problem in the world can be solved by dancing…” – James Brown 

March 16, 2018

I caught the dancing bug early in life. If memory serves, I was 8 years old at a summer camp sock-hop, when one of the councillors dropped Young MC’s Bust A Move and I was hooked. I had no idea about the racialized controversy that hip-hop was stirring up at the time in the early 90’s, I had no idea that the roots of the songs I heard on Dance Mix ’93 reached back into the burgeoning illegal rave scene in the UK. All I knew was that this was fun. Moving my body to music made me feel alive in a way that I had never before experienced. Over the next couple of decades Music would solidify itself as the focal point that my existence would rotate around, and dancing was always an integral part of that. I’ve had a tonne of peak experiences with writing, playing, and performing Music over the years, but the one I want to tell you about happened on the dancefloor in my early 20s and shaped me in a profound way.

I grew up in a rough little mill town in Northern Saskatchewan, and there wasn’t much happening that you could consider a music scene. Friends and I used to drive down to the big city to go to raves in my late adolescence, but by 2002 or so that scene had largely fizzled. So when a guy wanted to go dancing pretty much the only option was a scuzzy meat-market of a bar called The Outer Limits. The hipster in me cringed at the thought of the place, but I’ve never wanted to be the one guy not having fun because of a “too cool” attitude. So I would bite my lip and brave the terrible music, and usually my friends and I would end up having a pretty awesome time there despite my artist’s elitism.

The place was jam packed on the night in question. The DJ had been hard at work, whipping the crowd into a sweaty, alcohol induced trance with a steady barrage of early 2000’s Top 40 club bangers… And now it’s maybe 20 minutes before close… and there’s a sweet spot here. The crowd has long ago set it’s everyday cares aside, and they’re ready to really get down before they’re ejected out into the night after last call. There’s the opportunity to create some magic here if you can play just the right track, and the DJ switches things up with the song “One More Time” by Daft Punk.

Now if you don’t know this song, let me tell you that it truly is one of the greats. It combines Daft Punk’s inimitable skill for ceaseless repetition, with a joyful/celebratory vocal hook, and an insistent 4 to the floor kick drum. BUT, it’s got this loooooonnnnnngggg breakdown and buildup that many a DJ of little faith will mix out of due to a fear of losing his audience’s attention. Tonight was different though. Tonight, the DJ (bless his heart) let the whole breakdown play out, and indeed something magical did happen.

About mid-way through this long breakdown and build up (Celebrate and Dance For Free… … One More Time… … Music’s Got Me Feelin’ So Free…   …), I look up across the dance floor, and I see, no… I almost feel every single body in the room pulsing together. The crowd has momentarily stopped trying to get into each-other’s pants, and for the briefest of instants everyone in the building  is fully absorbed in the Music, dancing as if there was nothing else in the world. In that moment, I felt this enormous sense of gratitude for being alive. Yes, there is war and famine and disease, yes there is trauma and grief and pain, yes the world is a deeply troubled place and it often seems like there’s not a thing we can do about it. But this moment took all of that and encapsulated it in a deep, joyful, celebration. Yes life is pain, but isn’t it so good to be alive anyway? I met eyes with a friend briefly, and we both shook just our heads at this enourmous beauty. There was nothing to say, just experience it. I walked home that night a different person.

I think I’ve probably had more peak experiences with Music than I can count, but this one still sticks with me. It would be another seven or eight years before I would ever get it into my head to actually start writing Music for people to dance to. But that moment stays clear as something that I want others to experience, and it’s one of the reasons that I’ve been doing what I’ve been doing with my Life.


I’ve always had a bit of a Love/Hate relationship with electronic Music. Even going to raves as a kid in the late 90’s I was never really passionate about the Music, I just wanted to dance. The culture of DJ worship, and the all too common air of empty celebration have always rubbed me the wrong way. I spent my formative years listening to bands like Tool, and Radiohead… artists who had something real to say both musically and philosophically. That’s the kind of vision that I’ve always aspired to, and it’s definitely the intention that I bring to Sleepwreck. I believe that to truly confront the realities of being alive in the 21st Century (climate change, topsoil loss, mass extinction, social upheaval, etc. etc. etc.) is literally too much for any one person to bare. In the rare moments when I’m able to open my heart to it, I can sense this enormous ocean of emotional energy sitting just below the surface, dark and turbulent. A big part of making the Music I do is about attempting to express that inexpressible tide, both for my own benefit and hopefully for the benefit of those who feel it too and can relate.

The world is in a troubled state, and I’m just like everyone else in my confusion around what to do about it. However, I think one thing that is certain to help is for human beings to have experiences which allow them to transcend their individual narratives and experience themselves as a part of the larger human family, (and indeed the even larger non-human world beyond that). James Brown once said that “dancing is the one thing that could solve most of our problems”, and in a way I think he’s right. Without getting overly Messianic, I think that experiences like the one I had on the dance floor of the Outer Limits, shared in  acknowledgement of the overwhelming realities of modern life, are one important piece of the puzzle that will help humankind make it through the challenging times ahead. To me, it’s clear that we as human beings are undergoing a mysterious transformation, and the intention of my work as an artist is to serve that transformation as best I can.


To Be Truly Witnessed as an Artist

September 7, 2017

I’m in a pretty much constant grappling match with myself over how I want to promote my music/art, and what my goals are for that promotion. It can be really difficult to avoid the “Why am I not an internationally famous auteur with millions of followers?” trap, and I struggle with that on a more or less regular basis. However, the other day (at Burning Man actually) I underwent an intention setting exercise, and the results were illuminating.

I had the opportunity to ask myself why I actually want a “bigger following” and investigate the deep heart’s desires that are behind that wish. What I found (and in fact what I’ve been telling myself in my more lucid moments for the last decade) is that the size of my audience isn’t the really important thing. What I really want is to be deeply witnessed by my audience… For my fans to really get it, and by extension to really get me.

So now the interesting thing is to allow that little insight to work it’s way into my actual activities on a daily basis. Any promotion work that I may or may not undertake can be held up against this simple measuring stick, and evaluated for how useful it may be.

“Will this activity allow me to be deeply witnessed by my audience?” or “How can this activity best be executed so as to allow myself to be deeply witnessed by my audience?”

It’s horribly easy to get caught up with the narratives of “This is what I need to do to succeed in the Music Industry”… I need more Soundcloud followers, I need such and such a label to take notice of me, I need to play at SXSW, I need to make a music video, I need to hire a manager and a publicist and an agent and a radio tracker and a social media person and a ghost producer and a personal trainer and a hair stylist… But all of these are completely irrelevant to my really deep heart’s desire of being truly witnessed by my audience. I could do every single one of them and if I’m not being witnessed then I’m still going to feel the same ache that I’ve been walking around with for my whole life. I could do literally none of those things, and if I have the sense that my audience really understands then I’ll feel like I’m succeeding… And as I’ve said before, feeling like I’m succeeding is infinitely more important than any outer condition that one may think of as “success”.

Being witnessed is scary. It’s vulnerable. It means showing up to the not-so-pretty parts of myself, and it means giving light to the parts of myself that I personally think are awesome but that my Great-Aunt-Gertrude may not be the biggest fan of. There’s a reason we avoid it as Artists and as people, being real gives others the chance to point and laugh… But that true connection with other human beings is only possible if we let our guard down and share our honest perspective.

So. I’m going to aim to be doing more of that from now on.

Transcending Problematic Beliefs

July 26, 2017

My last few posts have been pretty heady and esoteric, so I figured today I’d write about something a little more concrete. This is a simple  technique that I learned from a mentor a couple of years back that I’ve been putting into play over the last couple of weeks.

I had kind of thought that I’ve got the Rock-Star Delusion largely banished from my psyche, and that I do a pretty good job of defining success in my own terms these days. It’s taken a long time and a lot of internal alchemy to transcend the belief that my worth is tied up with what I do, but for the most part I feel like I’m pretty good at running my own race, not comparing myself to others, and acting for the sake of acting/letting go of the results. However, over the last couple of weeks I’ve found that niggling little golem voice piping up now and then…

“Why aren’t playing at Coachella…?”
“Why isn’t my name written on the side of that bus…?”
“Why does he have 1,000,000 plays on his Soundcloud page…?”

Not gonna lie, it can get really tiresome. Seeing these types of thoughts/feelings come up can be enough to make me want to break out my trusty personality scalpel and start carving away at myself. But… perhaps that’s not the best approach.

At the moment I’m operating on the hypothesis that these types of thoughts emerge out of what we could call a pathogenic belief (in other words, an emotionally charged assumption about the Nature of Reality  which gives rise to behaviour which is detrimental to the self). So, my guess is that the assumption at play is something to the effect of “Love is conditional, I need to earn it through what I do.” and that it’s deeply charged with the feeling of shame. Brene Brown has a lot of great stuff to say about shame, but what a lot of it boils down to is that we need to stop avoiding it if we’re going to self-actualize and live genuine, relatively joyful lives. We all feel shame in one form or another, and if we avoid it through alcohol/drugs, media intake, excessive business, narcissistic attention seeking, etc. we numb out  all of the feel-good emotions along with it. I highly recommend checking out her work.

So here’s the technique that I learned for when these types of thoughts/feelings come up.

1. Notice it and name it.
2. Pause and bring attention into the body (yes, literally inside the body). Feel what’s happening there. Very likely shame will show up as a dark churning mass in the lower belly.
3. Feel into it. Let it be exactly what it is. Sit with it.
4. When it passes or lessens, count backwards from 17 to Zero.
5. Think aloud the belief that you’d like to install in the old belief’s place. It should be stated positively and in the present, something like “My worth is inherent.”
6. Use your imagination and powers of visualization to feel in your body the emotion that this new belief is charged with. What does it feel like to be inherently valuable?
7. Go back to your day.

So does it work? It’s hard to say. The human psyche is a chaotic system, and it’s very difficult to pin down any kind of direct cause and effect. But it’s definitely better to respond to these kinds of challenges thoughtfully and consciously, as opposed to being absorbed with them or beating myself up because I don’t have it all figured out yet.

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